04/05/25

Today, Pluto stations retrograde, inviting us into deep, inner transformation. Pluto is the planet of power, truth, and the underworld, it strips away illusions and forces us to face what lies beneath the surface. In retrograde, its energy turns inward, creating a powerful opportunity to examine hidden emotions, unconscious patterns, and the attachments we’ve outgrown. This is not about easy shifts; it’s about soul work. The kind of work that, if we allow it, can help us reclaim lost power and evolve from the inside out.

Pluto Retrograde is all about transformation, and your birth chart holds the map to your personal evolution. It reveals where you carry power, where you resist change, and how to work with the cycles of growth in your life. Today’s cosmic energy is perfect for diving deep into your chart and beginning the journey of renewal. If you're ready to face your shadows and rise stronger, now is the time to begin.

This morning, I felt a deep and surprising loneliness. Not the kind that comes from being isolated, but the kind that hits even when you’re technically not alone. Both of my parents are here, in the same country as me for the first time. They were texting me, asking if I wanted to go out for lunch. A friend invited me to yoga. Another had plans to catch up. I had every reason to feel connected, but instead, I felt... hollow.

And I started to wonder: What is loneliness, really?
Sometimes it’s not about the people we have or don’t have. It’s about the stories we tell ourselves. The expectations we place on moments, on relationships, on what love or connection “should” feel like. And when reality doesn’t match those silent expectations, loneliness creeps in, not because we’re abandoned, but because we’ve abandoned what is in favor of what could have been.

Breaking up with an expectation is one of the hardest things to do. Expectations are comforting. They create a blueprint for how things should unfold. But Pluto doesn’t honor blueprints, it breaks them. This retrograde asks us to sit in discomfort, to hold space for what’s real, even when it’s raw.

Today reminded me that expectations aren’t always bad, they’re just not always true. And when we confuse presence with perfection, or connection with control, we miss what’s right in front of us. I could have said yes to all those invitations. But maybe what I needed more was to face what was going on inside, without distraction.

So now, I’m sitting with it. Not rushing to fix it, just feeling it. Letting the silence say something instead of running from it. Because healing sometimes means sitting with the truth you’d rather avoid. And in that silence, I’m learning to meet myself.